Friday, January 4, 2013

Getting Started

So a handful of people have been wanting me to start a blog about my various projects as I work on them. Something to take done of the tedium out of disabled life. Two years ago I was diagnosed with a complex chronic pain condition that eventually cost me my job and has seriously impacted the quality off my life.
It had been a struggle adjusting to the reality that I am no longer the healthy and physically active individual I used to be. Even harder to face was a once very promising career and future that abruptly ended with no hope of ever returning. I am no longer able to be independent and self sufficient. Until this had happen to you it is something few people are able to relate to.
At 28, I had it all, a career with constant room for advancement where I was an expert in my field, a part time job as a performer on the side that fed my creative needs, and a spectacular group of friends, while living in one of the best cities in America. But that all changed. I lost almost all of it in what felt like overnight.
It had been even harder for family and friends to accept this change. I went from going out almost every night of the week to only getting out of the house maybe once a week. Tasks that at one time seemed simple, like buying groceries or vacuuming, were suddenly things I had to have help with. Friendships have ended because of my physical limitations and even my family seems to be in denial over my condition. Needless to say the end result has been a deterioration of my sense of self worth and value as a deep seated depression settled in to place. I feel isolated, forgotten, and worthless.
So I needed something. Sewing ended up being a solution. At first it was just a great distraction from the anxiety that comes from all of the various legal appeals regarding my condition that I am involved in. So much of my life its now completely out of my control. This was something I could control.
Sewing. Relatively low impact. As it is a hobby. I can set my own hours and it works as something to do with my time more than watch TV. At the same time it isn't demanding so on the days my body isn't cooperating with me I don't need to stress over what I haven't finished. Plus now with blogging I have something to do when bed bound with pain. 
Being the creative person that I am I never have just one project in the work. Yesterday alone my boyfriend bought me fabric for for new projects. I will start by blogging about the projects I just recently finished and move on to in the works projects.

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